It’s been two months since I left Jogja to go back to Jakarta. A place called home yet I found that it’s a whimsical concept to call Jakarta as my home. I somehow feel disconnected with this jungle of concrete. Unlike what I feel with Jogjakarta, I don’t feel I belong in Jakarta. I’d rather known as an “Orang Jogja” instead of “Anak Jakarta”. It’s weird because while I lived in Jogja, people knew me as Anak Jakarta and I was okay with that.
Everytime I go to my office and drive through the usual traffic jam, I always wonder how Jakarta people live. It’s still amaze me to see a lot of cars in the early morning heading to their own offices. How can they survive through this routines? No wonder if people in Jakarta is so unfriendly, bitter, and cynical. Consider how hard the life they live, it’s a miracle that the rate of suicide in here is not as high as in Tokyo. Jakarta people are much tougher than I think.
May be because I observe this every morning, I refuse to be the part of them. I sort of conceal myself from the negativity this city bring. I treat Jakarta not as home, but merely a transit place. Even though the fact that I’ve spent my life here for 9 years from elementary school to junior high, I don’t want to spend the rest of my life in here. I always think going back to Jakarta is what I want, but now I don’t really feel like this is the right home I want.
Semoga kata maaf tidak hanya terucap di bibir saja. Semoga lebaran tidak hanya menjadi perayaan semata. Semoga hari ini bisa menjadi titik balik untuk menjadi pribadi yang lebih baik. Kembali ke fitrahnya sebagai umat yang menyebarkan manfaat.
YES. YES. I GET IT NOW.
Bill Hader and Kristen Wiig are twins on The Skeleton Twin! I think this movie will be more drama than comedy, but I still want to see them act together. Udah lama banget gak ngeliat mereka main bareng di SNL. I guess this movie won’t be available in Indonesia’s cinema. Dulu sih masih bisa bilang “Tinggal nunggu keluar aja di Luxury/Prima Net/Dewa net,” tapi sekarang sudah tidak bisa lagi. Huhuhuhuhu.. Semoga entar di Primewire ada streamingnya deh.
Dia berharap keberadaannya di situ cukup kentara. Sehingga ketidakberadaannya akan membuat orang merasa kehilangan.
Dia merasa tak perlu ditangisi sedu sedan. Dia hanya tidak ingin dilupakan. Sehingga dia berdoa dari dalam hati yang paling dalam agar namanya tercetak di sela-sela ingatan si cendekiawan.
ADVISE FOR RAMADHAN
As we enter this blessed month of mercy, I give this advice to myself first, and then to you:
Don’t let this Ramadan be just a holiday of rituals. Don’t finish reading the Quran without it transforming you. Don’t feed your body at suhoor, but starve your heart of Qiyam. Don’t reduce this downpour of mercy to just a month of sweets and lavish iftars. Seek Him, you will find. Take a sincere step towards change, transformation, redemption. If you do, you will find Him in front of you. Find Him this month. He’s been there all along. Closer than your jugular vein. Look and you’ll find. Walk and you’ll arrive.
—Yasmin Mogahed (via thepiercingstar)